Two days ago we had the "big" ultrasound and saw that our baby boy and baby girl (yeah for one of each!!!) are healthy and adorable. Such wonderful news. A few minutes after that though, we were told that my body had already started down the path of early labor (I am 20 weeks along) and so the next day I had surgery to try to keep things at bay and I am now on bed rest until these babies get here. Which I sincerely hope is not for a long long time. (4 months-ish would be awesome).
I'd be lying if I said I have been all smiles and optimism these past few days. I had major grieving the first day over all that has instantly changed in our lives. First and foremost the fear that things might turn out badly for my already loved babies was more than my heart could take. Second- I had fun plans to buy blue and or pink balloons and stuffed animals to shows the kids what the babies were going to be. I'd planned to come home and sort through my bins of baby clothes and get things organized. I was going to make cookies this week, go swimming with the kids on Friday, and glory in the happy news of my healthy twins and pregnancy. I was going to sew an apron for Lucy so I could stop the battles over Marian's pink apron and I was going to get moving on all that needs to happen to get our basement finished before the babies got here. I was going to take kids to parks, make jell-o for Jack, bathe my girls each night and make a small start in the flower beds. (insert 100 other things here).
All of that. ALL OF THAT has to wait...or be done by someone else. But that's okay. It can all wait and thanks to the family and friends and new neighbors (who don't really even know me) who have literally jumped at the chance to help out, all the things that need to get done are getting done by angels! I can't express how much love and gratitude I feel right now. I feel so blessed, by those around me and especially my Heavenly Father.
These are special babies coming to our family, and although I hope we don't get to meet them for a long time, I am grateful that they are part of our family and grateful for the patience, humility, gratitude, faith, and hope they are already teaching me.
These are going to be hard times I think. But happy times too. And even more happy times are going to come in the future. This summer has been very happy. Here are some pictures to prove it and to remind me that there are more happy times to be had.
Newport Beach with my love
getting spoiled by grandma Shari at the Zoo
Canyon breakfast with uncle Robby
sister love in the back seat
joy in the sand
happiest place on earth...so true for 4 and 6 year olds
4th of July parades
fresh watermelon
loves from Grandpa Bruce
Cousins!
pure cuteness
garden beauty
We bought a house
We bought a HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(pretend the garage is closed)
sheer determination...and success!
